Lately, I have been choosing to walk to work. Don't get excited. Look to the left, I am only a quarter of a mile from work. I usually do it in about 5 minutes. So it is not a great feat.
Yesterday morning I chose fashion over comfort; I wore a pair of flats instead of tennis shoes. Therefore, my walk took me a little longer which gave me a little longer to talk with God.
I really enjoy my walks to work. Although it is not far, it still gives me uninterrupted time with God. I get to pray for people in my life, I pray for what the day holds, I pray for the neighborhood, and I pray for people I see, as I am led.
By the time I get to work, I am feeling pretty good. Even the days when my heart is heavy, I can feel the joy of God welling up in me by the time I get to work. So I actually look forward to my little walks. I am a little sad if it is raining or there is rain in the forecast that would prevent me from walking. Also, I feel a little sad when I have off site appointments where I have to use my car during the day, which causes me to have to drive to work.
It's like sometimes I walk in the kitchen and attempt to turn the lights on and reach to the left rather than the right. Back in New Orleans, the light switch was on the left. Maybe it just happens to me, but it does.
You see, in that split second I felt a little put-out I had to walk to work. All the kids had left for school and work, in their cars, and I had to walk to work. Now, this all happened in just a few seconds, Then it hit me, my attitude is different when I choose.
During my walk, God used that thought, 'my attitude is different when I choose' to reveal some things to me. When I choose, my attitude is different from when I have to do. This reminded me that I have to choose again and again.
It rang true in many areas of my life. But it really hit home when I thought about choosing God, with a choosing attitude. I say it often, but I don't think I have thought of it in this way. God wants me to choose Him, because my attitude is different when I choose. I also know I have to choose again and again. I have to choose to serve Him. I have to choose to worship Him. I have to choose to die to self (sometimes moment-by-moment) so He can live in me.
I naturally get brushed the wrong way when someone tells me what I have to do. I think it is common. One of the first words babies learn is 'no.' In my community, I have heard lots of time, "All I HAVE to do is stay black and die."
But when I choose, I submit. I know that is also a hard word, but it is not a bad word. When I choose, that is what I am saying. Given the choices, I select this one and I will do what is required of me regarding it.
Here is a dictionary definition of submit: to give over or yield to the power or authority of another.
Here is a verse I have have been meditating on:
James 4:5, Or do you think Scripture says without reason that he jealously longs for the spirit he has caused to dwell in us?
I think that is the bottom line. In all we do, we have to choose God.
Or do you think Scripture says without reason that he jealously longs for the spirit he has caused to dwell in us? (James 4:5)
I don't think it says it without reason. He does jealously long for the spirit He has caused to dwell in us. And the reality is, we long for Him.
So yesterday, I gladly chose God over and over again.
- I chose Him when I walked to work.
- I chose Him when I took a walk after work.
- I chose Him when I had to pray myself past the suckers that are sitting on the counter right as you exit the restroom at work.
- I chose when I got to sit in the presence of people who love God and also want to choose Him over and over again.